Matt and I had never had sexual intercourse before we were married; not with each other or anyone else. We were looking forward to our wedding night with excited anticipation. However, we were unable to consummate our marriage that night. It wasn't a big deal. We were both tired and worn out from our wonderful wedding. I knew we'd have plenty of opportunities on our honeymoon to make up for lost time. We spent our honeymoon at a resort in the Dominican Republic. It was a beautiful resort that communicated, "You should be resting and having sex right now." With no lack of trying, Matt and I were unable to consummate our marriage until April 7, 2011, 6 days after we got married. We finally did it, but it was painful. Not knowing anything different, I just thought sex would be painful until I got used to it.
The pain continued long after our honeymoon ended. I started to fear being alone with my husband, because I was scared to have sex with him. It got to the point that I would shy away from his touch and find excuses to not be intimate. Matt thought I hated him. He thought I regretted marrying him. Our first year of marriage was extremely difficult, but we got through it. Fortunately, there was a "light" at the end of the tunnel. We would soon find out that there was a legitimate reason/issue that would make sense of all the struggles we encountered in our first year as husband and wife. We were about to embark on a long, difficult journey, but we were facing it together.
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| Our wedding day. Location: The Newberry Opera House Photographer: Lucas Brown |
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